Dating

I really should start dating again. Specifically, online dating. I wish there were an alternative, but I have never been good at hanging out at bars like bait or striking up conversation with attractive strangers at Target or whatever. Even at the gym, where I see the same people all the time, I have difficulty chatting them up. I am shy. Shit. It's nice but it can, however, stop you from doing all things in life you want to. Which is to date and mate, I guess.

I should put up another profile on the dating site I was on earlier. I met with two eligible bachelors, but I wasn't enthralled. They were alright--one was lacking in humor and the other one was too Aw Shucks for me. What am I saying, they were fine, I just wasn't into it, the whole thing. I feel so unmotivated, but hanging out alone on Saturdays cooking fabulous dishes and watching interesting critically claimed films on DVD gets repetitive. I've got to do something to move my life forward in more interesting ways, and that involves other people. I have some very good friends, but it's not like I want to hang out with them all the time, either. There need to be more people around, circulating around me. However, I live in a small city with bigger, more urbane city aspirations, but sadly, has never gotten there. If I intend to continue living here, I need to make more of an effort. I don't want to, though. I mean I do want the result, but I am reluctant to do the work to get it. What can I say, I live in contemporary America.